I know how much you're hurting right now. It seems like there is no end in sight, but I can tell you that it will pass. You are very close to turning a corner in your life. The light will come back. Do not give up on healing.

You won’t believe this but 10 months from now you are going to change. You will listen to a podcast which will change your life. You are about to learn about something called TMS, or PPD. Then you'll get the chance to work with an author of the PPD textbook.

Think of everything you have been through in your life. Think how much pain you have suffered by others’ actions. Where do you think that pain goes? Where does the frustration and anger actually go when you let it build up? Into your body, into your muscles and tendons in the form of tension which causes you the pain. Your body right now is trying to fool you into thinking there is something wrong with you so that you do not deal with your emotional pain from everything you have been through.

Do not give up.

You are about to discover the most amazing thing, you are a highly sensitive person. This is where your super powers come from.

Your time is coming. Do not fear this any more. You are stronger than you know and you can do anything you want to. It is time to get excited. Excited that the end is in sight. Excited that this is not the way your life is going to be forever.

You will be able to play with the girls again. You won't be as grumpy and you will get back to training in the gym. Everything will fall into place. Just give it time and trust your thoughts.